Sunday, August 28, 2005
mIstakes wE kNew wE wEre mAking.
so. its been a week and a day. sometimes i smile to myself. agreeing to my friends when they consider me lucky. at times, the downs i'll have to suffer for. alone. but i seldom show. sigh. woke up in the morning at ard 6.30. i prayed and went back to bed. i dont know why but this morning i felt so weak. then i woke up at 8. around 9+ i smsed Ratu. told her not to sms me for today. then i watched tv jap. and went online. im yah surprised to see her online. because she's the type that will wake up nearly in the mid-day. so 9+ is early. yah. haha. then we chatted. had breaks. yah. then at 1+ she had to sweep the floor. and after about half an hour or so, she still haven't returned. then my small sis wanted to use the comp. so i waited close to an hour. yah. my sis is so irritating. very irritating. then i dont know who was in front of her comp. i get more bingit. i dont know why but why do u assume what i typed out was meant for u? things would turn out fine if u had read it from the start. not jump to conclusions. ugh. even if it was ur brother in front of the com. must u trust him a hundred percent? y not read it urself. ugh. u knew me yet u ahhhh. forget it. u cld have e-mailed me like hw u e-mailed to my sis. i wouldnt bother wait if i havent loved. today, the second mishap occured. since 20th August. both were about misunderstandings. the last one occured when i couldnt send her home. i just cant. my ez link was with my teacher. and i spend all the money for that day including the syillings. it was partly my fault too. i promised. i said sorry but she didnt even seem to bother. so from her perspective, its my fault. she was still moody on friday morning. i tried to make her smile that day. i feel tired at the same time better whenever i see her smile again. its like such a big achievement. for me. sigh. so while she was having the e-mail session with my sis, i drew some names. ours and hers. i wanted to put it up but. um. what for?. she wouldnt even bother. then here i am now updating this entry. i told her not to sms me yet she did. but when i replied, she kept quiet. i just dont understand. ugh. so for tonight, my dad is driving all of us except my sis to Johore. i was excited when my mum told me bout it yesterday. i'm gonna get lotsa new stuffs. but now, i dont even feel like going. ahhhh why why???? tell me straight in the face. tell me that i suck. this is what i should call my bad day. however, um. i still do love.
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